You "got' most of what I feel and all of which I needed to hear validated. My WTF radar was up far more than my hopes were; my hopes, actually weren't up at all.
And if she wanted to Reconcile, there would be an awful lot she would have to say, do, apologize for, explain and start making serious amends for. At this point, I don't think that much backtracking, that much repairing is even possible anymore.
And even if it were, I don't know if I could ever be "there" again.
Besides, all I've seen is two recent instances of speaking - of words - on her part. No action or concrete steps taken at all.
I am quite far along in the grieving process. Now to face full-on, unemotionally, the undeniable fact that she no longer is - or perhaps never was - the person I once loved beyond measure.
I really appreciate you stopping by and I greatly admire all the "drive-by" DBing good you do for people here.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
