Believe me I can feel what you are feeling... And I know it sucks. WTF? Now? Well, it has happened before and if you check out Gforces threads, his wife backed off the day of the D. They just had a baby a couple of months ago.
BUT, it doesst always play out like that, and I think that even if the WAS really do want to end the M, the regret and remorse sneak in their heads anyway. I mean, they are still human afterall-some of them at least! Especially when the LBS has treated them with kindness and at some point what they KNOW isntead of what they believe, surfaces...
I am not sure you can do anything right now. You did give her an opening, you have stated your take on what happened. It is pretty sad to allow pride and the feeling of "it is too late now" get in the way of a possible reconciliation but, you cant be pursuing now. I would even suggest try implementing all avaiable detachement techniques and stop spinning.
Although I have been reading your threads on and off, I havent lately and I dont know what YOU want right now. If you still love her, remember that a piece of paper will not stand in the way if what's important is there between you. Love is much more appreciated when the couple feels they nearly lost it.
I dont believe any of us can give you a preview of what may follow because we dont know. I dont think she knows either. Stay strong for the next coming days. What will be, will be. K
