Mixed Signals or is this Limbo Land

[MHL]

mb28,
Understand the FB thing. I have thought about deleting my W as a friend but decided not to, she does not post on it anyhow so it does not bother me.

Update on things, I wanted to take the day off of work yesterday but could not b/c of crap going on at work so that put me in a pissy mood and I was starting to get a little pissed at my W so when I dropped my S9 with her last night, I was very short, in fact I was probably rude but if I had interacted with her at all, I might have ripped her head off. There is nothing she has done as of late to cause the negative emotions in me, all I had to do was sorta manifest them and boy it came on strong. I had a down moment at lunch yesterday and got mad at her for the moment I was experiencing. I kept it in the road though, she knew I was upset and said nothing about it.

This morning I was to pick my S9 back up at 10 and my W texted me to see if the regular place was okay and I responded why don't we meet at the local breakfast place b/c I have not eaten yet. She hadn't either and S9 was hungry also. So we met, me, my W, and S9 had brunch together, D13 slept in and would not go anyhow. I know, not exactly tough love on my part, but I felt like I went overboard last night.

It was enjoyable brunch and it felt like it did back at Christmas again but this time I would look at her and know that tonight she will be on a date or out or something and as long as I don't know, I don't care. I will be out myself tonight. There were some loving like glances between us but I made sure they were glances and nothing else. She did ask if I had a bad day at work yesterday and I said yes, she seemed relieved or even happy about this. I guess I need to be friendly w/o being friends, I don't know. The morning ended with a mutual hug that lasted a couple of seconds too long and then S9 join in and said "HUG IN !!!" Otherwise known as "group hug". My wife squeezed me pretty tight then.

I am not reading anything into this b/c I don't care, I have things to do today and plans tonight which should be "fun for ME", church in the morning, playoffs tomorrow and get ready for the upcoming week. I guess this is GAL and it does feel good, I can have that interaction with my W and not think about it later b/c I have too much else to do. I just need to do this all the time and not focus on her.... Best advice I've had all day!

Happy Saturday Everyone.