Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Just putting in a quick post. I am still reading The Art of Seduction still and will be posting reflections and thoughts soon.

Currently I am playing (new) Super Mario Bros on my wii and having fun! I sure don't get to play it as much as I thought but hopefully once S goes back to sleeping longer at night I will be able to. There are some other games I want to play but will get to them!

My house got a little messy yesterday and it bothered me that it had to be in this state when WH came to get S. After this post I am working out and then cleaning it. I don't want him to think my changes are superficial! But the reality too is that I was so busy with company and the baby shower that I didn't get much of a chance to clean up! But when he gets S he will see that it was cleaned again.

Now whenever he comes to pick up S and takes S over there I am not as nice as usual, haha! I mean I am just kind of like "hi, yeah he ate at this and this time. Ok see you later!" He was almost asking me what clothes S should wear like I was going to help him pack the clothes or prepare for his visit??? give me a break!

So luckily today is the last 8-4 visit and then next weekend S will be back by 12 so if I sleep in I won't have to miss S for too long! I am trying to figure out if I want to leave the house next Friday night or just "pretend" like I am leaving. In the future weeks, I will plan something to do but I might just want to stay in my own house and relax.