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[gutwrenching]

Rocked - thanks for the words of encouragement. I really do feel I did as well as I could have today. I turned a discussion of what should we do into more and finally got over some fear of pushing her away and stood my ground. Right now, things don't seem any worse than they were. The fact she is supposedly thinking about what we should do is actually probably a positive. W has never once before told me she was thinking about the future...it was always give me space so I can see if I can ever get feelings back again. I on the other hand am not thinking about it much at all tonight. I need to back away...just needed to come read here and then my friend posts which was so nice to see. Thanks.

Anxiety is back tonight, that is no surprise though with the day I had both with work and with all the R talk.

I might have pushed a little too hard today at least according to DB principles, but with such a potentially short timeline, I decided it is what needed to be done. And I balanced the pushing of I want an effort with the I won't be your doormat anymore and I am tired of the all the BS (deceit, treated poorly, etc). And I did a lot of validating. That one I've got down pat these days.

So now we have about 48 hours to figure things out and for once, it appears she is thinking more about things than I am! That role reversal feels good.