Need Help Fast Please..............

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Update:
I still need to work on the detachment process a lot. I find my mind wandering and wondering how things could have been different and why things have gotten so out of control that there is no turning back. That is probably the hardest part of this whole process is knowing that I was not even given a chance to make things work. We went from happily being on vacation and talk of another child to done in literally a matter of days.....

I am also sad for my S2. I struggle with accepting that i will find love again I want to think that is the case but than I look at some of my single friends and they have all confided in me over the years that they are unhappy and looking for a relationship, how tough it is out there, etc...It is funny I have always been the ear and advice person of my group of people and W accuses me of being "impossible to talk to"?? Back on track though about S2 it is totally unfair and even cruel to him that he will have to live his childhood out of a suitcase shuttling back and forth between mom and dad's house. I remember being a little kid and my room was my piece of the world. I felt so safe and secure there and I know the optimists would say that now he gets 2 places like that, but the pessimist part of me says that it sucks that he will never get to make 1 place that special.

W now says that she is going to stall the D process b/c she does not want to agree to split custody anymore. So that I will need to file in April after our hearing is scheduled and than she will fight for full custody. So she is saying that she does not want a Divorce or a Marriage and really just wants me to go away and let her come and go as she pleases and not try to fix anything. Now that part I do not need any pick me ups on. I know and have known since bomb day that that is totally unacceptable. It is unfathomable to me that W could even think that is a sensible solution.

Anyways long little rant here but I am frustrated as it seems now that this women is not even capable of Divorcing properly. EVERY decision and EVERY hurdle along this road has been her way and has been the hard way, the expensive way, the most damaging way. I have talked to my L about this and the gloves are about to come off. I am tired of being along for the ride on her crazy roller coaster with a complete lunatic behind the wheel.

I hope that come this next week W can get hit with a big dose of reality and start to see that she is going to get exactly what she has been asking for. I only hope that there is a beautiful ending for me out there somewhere soon......