Next steps

[avermont]

Thanks so much for writing in, LFA. I really wanted to hear from you.

It's nice to have someone sharing a parallel universe with me, but I'm sorry you have to be here!

Yes, the thought of the blouse came to me before thinking about having to meet X for finances. I just never wear form-fitting clothes, have always been self conscious about my body--so it is a big 180 to wear something that fits right and looks sexy/feminine. I wasn't expecting that X would suddenly change his mind upon seeing my fabulous beauty.

I am struggling with this bad mood. Keep coming back to: how will I be a better person, which is the whole focus of this board?? Absolutely no point in going through this hell if something about me doesn't change for the better.

I am actually thinking of attending an AA type meeting, not that I'm giving up drinking! But for that whole 'moral inventory' thing. I have got to figure out the best place to put my self-improvement energy.

When you feel like catching up your story, I'm looking forward to hearing it. If you don't feel like talking about all the feeling stuff--believe me, I'm gettng so tired of it too! we can just compete on who has the scarier basement.

I can offer all sorts of support on tackling the house projects, too. It's true that many women don't have those skills, and that's part of the scariness of being on our own.

How about a cat for the mice? Traps really aren't that bad to deal with. Drop the whole thing in a paper bag, and just buy more traps.

My next scary thing to do is clear the bathroom sink clog. I tried a whole bottle of Drano--anything to avoid dealing with the ick!! But I know how to do it, and I will! If I puke, which is a real possibility, well, I will be right by the toilet!

Wish me luck on that particular gross project, which I totally would have made X do.

Be well, be well!

Be well!