Not Me Ever...part 3

[Serenity13]

My last thread was getting way to long so I thought today is a new day so I need a new thread

Journal~
The last 4 days have been filled with an excessive amount of stress. The city police were at my house on Tues. doing a curfew check and S was 2 hours late.

By 7pm on Weds. S was moved out, living with my H. Weds. night little one got sick and was ill everywhere, once I got him settled in and I had just about drifted to sleep, the Sheriff showed up at the house, thought they were looking for S -

Nope, came to serve me a warrent and arrest me. Once they saw how sick little one was, they gave me until the next day to take care of the outstanding checks.

Thurs. morning, I am freaking out wondering how I am supposed to come up with the money thanks in part to the man I am married to...

The Lord stepped in and sent a friend my way who helped keep me out of jail. I have to now go to court next month however at least I can prove that the 2 checks that bounced were in no way my fault.

By the end of last night, I was actually filled with *dare I say* joy. I was able to get a good and decent sleep last night and awoke very calm...

Little one is home from school today and aside from that, I feel like a thousand pound weight has been lifted.

I spoke to my MIL last night and she did say something that has paused me for thought - She said that I will continue to "sink" until I "hear" what God is trying to tell me...

Walking out of the police station after almost going to jail, I am sure I heard Him...

Today for the first time in a long time, I can see a speck of sunshine on my horizon...

My path is being filled with His light and I no longer feel like I am walking blindly around in the dark.

[Day by Day]

Sounds like a good end to a difficult week. So glad you were able to keep out of jail.

Keep being strong. ((hugs))

[kara]

(((Serenity)))

I have two things to say to you:

Trials don't last forever.

God is Good!

I know you know both of these. And a third, you are a strong, amazing woman.

Three truths.

[Serenity13]

(((DbD)))

It is nice to see you over here

It has been a good ending to a crappy week however I was thinking about that yesterday and I realized something - I don't have to go that low ever again...

Today I feel like dancing

[Serenity13]

(((Kara)))

I think it is time for some retail therapy my friend

God is very very good!

Trials - I am almost to the point of welcoming them because I continue to amaze myself - That is in no way a vain statement...It is just based on how I always looked at myself...

I always looked down on myself for so many different reasons and each day is offering me something new and each day I am learning something from it...

This past week I have learned that my H is the king of distributing emotional blackmail - I also learned I can call bulls**t when I see it and I no longer worry about how he will react. All in all - A great week!

[Gardener]

As you continue to get stronger and stronger, the way becomes clearer.

(((Seren)))

[Serenity13]

(((Gardener)))

Good to see you my friend - I am feeling fantastic today...

I can't sit still...

I feel like I have been walking around and around in a tunnel and I have missed so much and today I want to experience everything I have missed out on - What to do?

Sidenote - Just received an email from H who was kind enough to let me know he is keeping me on his health & dental insurance - Don't know what to make of that so I just said thank you.

[Gardener]

Serenity,
You sound like like a woman who has had a tremendous weight lifted from her shoulders.

Further proof that you did the right thing for you and your sons.
(((())))

[Serenity13]

(((Gardener)))

I think it is due to the fact that as of last night, I refuse to be dragged any lower then I already have.

I kept thinking why is it that my H did all this yet his boys and I are the only ones suffering any consequences?

It is because I continue to be drawn into the mind games.

It is because I continue to react to what he says/does.

Thisclose to jail will wake any sane person up...

Time for me to rise my friend and stop being dragged by his crazy rope.

[Serenity13]

Today I have decided I want to run on the beach and then go get a tattoo