Half of your list of "positives" are what you WANT to do or are TRYING to do.

Redo the list from the perspective of one of your friends. What would they write about you?

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER