I am the cause

[undrdg]

After all this, i have finally found a way to come out and say that I was the one doing all the cheating. She did not divorce me for that, but I assume it was the underlying cause for my reclusivenes.

What do I do now? I feel like I have the tendencies of a sex addict.
Did I ever love her at all?
Does anyone have any advice?

[newmama]

Hmmm. Have you considered entering a 12 step program for sex addiction?

[chatterbug]

Yea. How about you start to be truthful to yourself.

Then you can appologize to many of us here who helped you.

But truefully dude.

You need help.

I suggest you go get it.

[undrdg]

Cutter
I am so very sorry. You helped me through a lot and this is how I repay you?
This is something i have been carrying for years, maybe my whole life. This was probably the deepest darkest secret i have.
I am ashamed, disgusted, disappointed with myself.

I do not know who i am.
Getting help?
What for? So i can one day become weak again and do it to someone else?
This has to be my greatest fear come to life.
I dont deserve help. I deserve to live with this punishment. The pain i have caused does not need to be fixed, it needs to consume me like it consumed others.
THere is no forgiveness for this. There is no coming back from this.
There is only pain. Pain that I deserve.
I am not better than the people that have harmed you. I am the worst kind of liar. The one that believes his own lies.
Hate me because i deserve to be hated.

[whatdidido]

Stop it. Are you a religious man?

[P17]

Pity party. I actually feel pretty offended that you come here with this cr@p. After all the stuff that is dumped on us by our relevant spouses and all the pain, lies, hurt, realisation and acceptance we have to go through, you want to give up before you've even begun.

Get a grip of yourself, grow a pair and get help. Stop the woe is me act - we are the wrong audience for that as ww see it every day.

[MrBond]

I have no pity whatsoever. You cheated and now have to deal with the guilt. Oh poor you. And you don't want to get help.

In my opinion you get everything you deserve. I just wish our WASs felt the same. Sounds like you enjoy playing the role of the victim and want us to actually feel sorry for you and to justify your actions, hold your hand and say everything's going to be alright without doing any work on yourself.

Cake eating and enabling.

[chatterbug]

Cutter
I am so very sorry. You helped me through a lot and this is how I repay you?
This is something i have been carrying for years, maybe my whole life. This was probably the deepest darkest secret i have.
I am ashamed, disgusted, disappointed with myself.

I do not know who i am.
Getting help?
What for? So i can one day become weak again and do it to someone else?
This has to be my greatest fear come to life.
I dont deserve help. I deserve to live with this punishment. The pain i have caused does not need to be fixed, it needs to consume me like it consumed others.
THere is no forgiveness for this. There is no coming back from this.
There is only pain. Pain that I deserve.
I am not better than the people that have harmed you. I am the worst kind of liar. The one that believes his own lies.
Hate me because i deserve to be hated.

you forgive yourself and work on yourself and correct your mistakes.

P.S. you helped me as well.

Take Care Friend.

[undrdg]

Pity party. I actually feel pretty offended that you come here with this cr@p. After all the stuff that is dumped on us by our relevant spouses and all the pain, lies, hurt, realisation and acceptance we have to go through, you want to give up before you've even begun.

Get a grip of yourself, grow a pair and get help. Stop the woe is me act - we are the wrong audience for that as ww see it every day.

Thank you.

[newmama]

Please do not think there is no hope in becoming a better person. It is the actions that we take each day that change us. Please figure out what action you can take today to help yourself.