Waiting for WAH to decide my fate?

[trytryagain]

thanks for the words of wisdom. i know i have to move forward with my life, it just seems like an impossible task with my H is such a big part of my life.

we aren't fighting. we aren't angry at one another. we are both sad and heartbroken. i just can't wrap my mind around why he feels like this is the only option, when i know we both love each other very much...we have both made our mistakes but i can't say he's been a jerk and i want him out of my life, and i don't think he would say that either.

i have read about 8 SH books. i have talked to a DB coach and a life coach. i am ready to make those changes in myself. i just need a chance and he's closed the door on that. i know i will be happier by moving forward and focusing on me...but dealing with an extreme amount of pain while trying to better yourself is a rather tricky balancing act!