Waiting for WAH to decide my fate?

[trytryagain]

I'm trying to stay calm and follow the advice of my coach and remember my DBing steps...I know it can be toxic talking to friends and family about things, because they only want to see me not hurting. Last night, my mother insisted that I'm being walked all over by letting my H stay at home, have dinner with me at home, and by waiting for HIM to decide my fate. It's so hard to stay strong and not break down and say all these things to his face, instead of just smiling and trying to make myself happy in whatever ways I can. But, how do I deal with being in limbo and waiting around on him to decide whether or not he wants this? I know, focus on myself, which I am...and I know this isn't going to be easy, but I do sort of feel like a jackass, sitting around waiting for him to make up his mind...

I can't NOT talk to my family (my parents live 15 minutes from me and are very close with me), but I also know I'm not going to get anywhere by pushing my WAH and telling him he either knows he wants us to work or he doesn't. Anyone else have to deal with this?? How have you been filtering what friends/family say??