Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

OH I WISH you guys were close to me but I am probably 3 hours time difference away from you all. I live on the West coast in Oregon!

Oh well I feel connected to you anyway here on DB forum!
I totally didn't think of the possibility of him testing me when he mentioned looking for daycare closer to the freeway! Well how did I do? I just nodded like "oh yeah no big deal" and said "yeah!" then changed the subject. That was good right?

Well tonight I bought my book, The Art of Seduction, and it is pretty good so far but it reminds me of something I would read in a college class. I did take a class called "The Philosophy of Sex and Love" and this book would be a perfect assignment for that class! It is not a light read. So I will need to study it during the time I can; maybe more so on Saturday when WH has S from 8-4.

I did glean that I am a "charmer" when it comes to my seduction style but it said we could be a blend of more than one type. And WH is "sensual" but I think there is more, so I will figure it out and report later!

So tonight I was gussied up and wearing lipstick with my "going out" shoes. I informed WH about S's day and then left. He usually says "have fun!" but just said "see you later" tonight. I went to the bookstore, bought the book, then read it over a couple glasses of red wine like I planned. A little while later, my class started so I arrived and changed into the appropriate clothing.

There were 20 women or so and 1 man! (????) Right away the instructor came to me to help me (I AM NOT coordinated! But after watching and listening I will achieve a C performance usually.) I still had a lot of fun and can't wait to go back! I need to purchase a "coin skirt" so it will ching and chang while I shake my hips Shikira style! The thing about learning these moves is that no one else outside of belly dancing students or experts will know if I am NOT doing the right moves. So when I show others what I have learned they will be impressed regardless!
Then I changed back into my clothes and went to a nearby restaurant for some salad and bruschetta while I read more of my book. I made sure to take time so I didn't come back too early!

When I arrived home, WH was just watching TV. S was asleep. He didn't ask me what I was doing and I asked him how S did. So we chatted about S and then he said he was going to get going and he'd check with us in the morning.

I just feel good--even though I am not down to my pre-preg weight yet, I do look good (chubby girls can still have curves!) and am 10 pounds or less away from the heaviest I have been with WH.

I'm hoping my confidence is radiating as well as my "secret" about the class I'm taking!
So that's it for now...