The adventure chronicles

[AFWAW]

So the wife called back again. She wanted to talk about counseling and wanted to know what else I wanted. I said, let's start with the truth. She said, what do you mean? I said, you haven't been truthful with me. She asked what did I want to know. I asked her to tell me how many men she had slept with. She said, what does that matter? I said, if you ever expect me to trust you again, we have to start somewhere. Was it 1, 2 or 4? She said, I don't know, I'd have to sit down and count.

Are you serious???? You don't remember? How many seriously? she got quiet for a minute and then said 6. Are you kidding? no she said. I asked, when was the last one? She said about a month ago. I said, so you're really serious about reconcilling then I take it? I asked her why and I got the BS answer that she was lonely and it just happened. I said, you taking off your clothes and spreading your legs for another man does not just happen--YOU made that choice. She said, I knew you'd be like this. I knew you'd react this way? I said, OMG are you kidding? How do you want me to react? I said, so you think that you really don't need some kind of professional help? She started crying and said, I know, I hate myself. She said, I'd give anything to be home right now and wish this had never happened. I've been mean to you over the years and I know I've hurt even more but can you forgive me?

I honestly didn't have a whole lot to say. I told her I didn't know if I could get over it. I mean that's a lot to get over, wow. She offered to come over. NO, that will not help.

So, I'm not crying but I'm hurt. It doesn't appear to me that she is sincere about wanting to come home and the whole take the woman off facebook was just another control issue for her. I can't have a woman friend but she can sleep with whoever she wants. 6 men in the span of a year and I asked about her "lover" that is the man she thought she loved. She said, they had sex more times that she could count and that she knows now that he just used her.

I don't know what to do other than get a divorce. I don't deserve this. This isn't normal even by normal affair standards(of course there isn't a normal standard, I know but this is extreme). I am just really really really hurt and confused again. I feel like I can focus on what I need to like work and my daughter but I am disgusted beyond belief that the woman I love would have sex with 6 men and claim that I am the love of her life.

I really really don't understand.