Here's my story..midlife crisis/infidelity

[Awoken]

Now I feel that I've failed my children in a way that I can never make up for no matter how great a mom I am.

I think we all feel like this.

Over the past 17+ years of my M, I remember reading in several parenting books about how important it was to put the M first, ahead of the kids. I've know all along that we were a good parenting team, but needed some work in our M. So it makes my current sitch harder to face. What if I had done more work on my M?!?

During the past three months I've really beaten myself up about this, and then the day that we told our kids that we were going to D, I felt the worse that I've ever felt. However, both my kids are wonderful. They both feel deeply loved. We have succeeded in many other areas. I do worry about what kind of M I have modeled for them. However, I do have the chance to show them how to handle life's challenges with honor and dignity. It's hard, and I hope my sense of failure in my M can serve to drive me to do better now.