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[gutwrenching]

Lotus/Rocked - about breaking the boundary of no contact...I don't have proof. I know she did, but I can't prove she did. She claims she didn't/isn't. The boundary I set was no contact, if she did then I would contact OM's wife. So i brought it up, tried to pull it out of her, tried every trick, she admitted to nothing. She gave up the tracphone, I watched her get it to make sure she didn't erase anything. There was no evidence on there.
So I guess now I need to just move on...not contiue to nag/harp.

Thanks Rocked for the words of encouragement. I am feeling down still, hopefully not showing. There was one long meeting today we both attended. I certainly wasn't cheerful but I tried hard not to look/act down. Even shared a couple of notes (work related) during the meeting and she asked me to pass on some info to her which I did (again all work related). I suspect I was only mildly successful today as even I can read her face/mannerisms today and it too isn't as happy--don't know if that is lack of sleep (she too was tossing/turning last night I heard it as I wasn't sleeping), drain from the discussion, or fact she lost her phone, or just the stress of possibly having to make some of those tough decisions if I leave for Hawaii in 30 days (gosh I still hope not).

There is also an opportunity to poke fun at her again for volunteering me to give a briefing instead of her, but right now, I will probably just stay away from that. Not sure, but I'm not feeling in a joke around mood, if I did it, it would be at the house.

One last thought to pass on. One of the things that still hurts me is all the acting at work. People always making comments about us, saying things like you are so lucky to have her, gosh those hurt to hear and then I have to agree and smile and such. Those things tear at me.