Feels like a lifetime...but no matter what I say in here, I know I had to go thru this in order for me to grow in Christ...but it does beat us down at times, but this is when I turn to God and instantly I have that peace that surpasses understanding, that no matter what comes my way I know I have him to get me thru this, everyone has their own journey and we have to accept what life has dealt us ....everyone in here has maybe felt this way when they 1st started this journey, had hope that one day they would return....I think that the reason most of them dont return is because someone has stopped praying....they just go on and try to get on with their lives...for me I have to keep praying...after all this time, I still have that hope that one day he will come back to me...but I will do what I have to do to survive...BND once said that it is NOT a hollywood ending and I am sure it is not....but we can still dream and have hope for it to be that way, it really is up to us whether WE let them come back he has released us from that??right??? I probably dont make sense right now but it does help to journal, maybe it helps someone or someone says just the right thing to help me....what a day......
