Venting-

I'm barely breaking even financially after moving out, I might even be a bit underwater. I appreciate H keeping me on the health insurance and the cell phone plan, otherwise I definitely would be underwater on my own. The point that is upsetting is knowing that he is doing much better financially by getting rid of me- well, he should, he makes three times as much without three times the expenses. And he still has his house, his bed, the bulk of the furniture, and the kids 85% of the time. What is he out so far?- half the savings account (which doesn't hurt him- he got a huge distribution from his dad's estate a couple months ago), the living room set, the kitchen table, and me, my issues and my rabbit. He already replaced the kitchen table with a nicer one- and we were looking for a new table last summer and never got it, now he did. So he can move on quite easily without me, and do better in the process. He's the one who insisted on bringing other people into our marriage, and he comes out on top. Must be nice to be the king- f*** him!

I know, the financial picture changes a little when we get official dissolution papers. But I don't understand- I'm not a fog-headed, entitled WAW expecting her H to move out and pay out the nose for her upkeep and his. How do those women justify it? My H cheated a couple of times (OK, not a major philanderer, but still- not cool), twisted my reality, and I move out, save him the heartache of leaving and try to take care of myself. He wins and the diva WAWs win. I don't understand.


W42/H42/M20
S/19,D/17
On My Own: 11/28/09