[/quote]The one thing I really struggle with is "do I deserve love and respect" etc? B/c I was really awful to him at times. I feel that. And i feel that i got what i deserved when he left. [quote]
Ahg, there goes my heart and stomach. I am still struggling with the guilt and "this is all my fault." I DID treat X very badly. No wonder he walked!
Trying to think of balance-I wasn't all bad, I wasn't, I wasn't..
But I am with you in this particular pain, hhh.
Me: 44 Him: 42 Together: 23 years; never married Bomb: August 1, 2009 Affair since May 2009 Walk away; no conversation; no process
