You do have an alternative to being calm and in control, and give yourself a big hug for choosing the better direction.
Your post today had a lot of stuff in it, and it sounds like you have reached a place where you can really do some reflecting on what's led you here including your own failures. Keep growing!
My kids are nearly grown, and I'm so saddened to be subjecting them to divorce. I can imagine with your young ones it must feel especially terrible too. One thing for sure, you can show them what it is like to have a wonderful, loving mother.
By the way, I'm so glad that you have started posting so often, and that you've found a voice here. I appreciate your support in my thread too! ((((JG)))
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