You cannot rush your process. You are going through the stages of grieving and it takes time. The more you detach, the better.
BTW, if he says he's going to get something to you, don't hold your breath on the timeline. Toss your expectations out the window and understand...time stands still for them and their minds are not on what is important. Their attention span is zip and emotionally they are all over the place.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
