The re-model project was probably both of us just grinning and bearing it. Well, maybe he could pass the time by fantasizing about getting back home to the new rental for some hot times with the new babe.
Me, I was just concentrating on acting like this was the MOST FUN EVER! Wow! and if I happen to trip and fall with that drywall knife--oops!
So I will give some consideration to being more involved in the production. Why not make HIM squirm when I just show up at the production meetings, drawings in hand??! The only reason not to is I have no way of knowing if he would bring OW to the meeting---they are generally at the bar, and social during/after.
But it would also be a good karma deed to participate in the most helpful way I can WITHOUT making it about my own personal drama and putting anyone else in an uncomfortable position.
OK-- I will meditate on this.
Thanks!
oh--just set my phone for 15 minutes-laid down in my office to cry or rest-whatever was going to happen, let it for 15 minutes. Cried some. Dozed a bit. Just a downish day. But I let it happen and then moved on to the next task.
Me: 44 Him: 42 Together: 23 years; never married Bomb: August 1, 2009 Affair since May 2009 Walk away; no conversation; no process
