H is back in his pad again for the last time! He will be home on Wednesday for good. So last night after he phoned me we ended up chatting on Msn, I happen to say that a ex DB mate of mine hadnt been in touch of some time and I was getting worried about her, she just wasnt coming to terms with him leaving. My H said that he thought it would get better with time, I said I probably better not answer that as he wouldnt like the answer, but he said to go ahead, so I did, and told him that only a WAS could say something like that and believe it to be true, I never would have stopped loving him but if he had pursued a D I would never have been able to be friends with him. He said he understood that!
The conversation continued and he said he found it hard that I thought so bad of him at times, I said that I never thought he was doing anything just feared he was but a little voice in the back of my head told me he wouldnt, never added I was never 100% but he seemed to feel better that my instinct that he was a good man stayed in play!
I dunno are we getting down to some of the sticky questions, I do still have a lot of hurt and anger lurking certainly the fact he has crushed my true love for him and now its a different love, also that he dumped me with only a thought for himself, he has said some lovely things over the last few days so Im hanging on to those for the time being, I do sense he is trying and like Rocked's thread title Im taking one day at a time. The financial worries are getting worse if only that could be lessened I'd maybe feel we were getting back on track again?
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
