Hello All I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I mailed off a THANK YOU card to my husband on yesterday and he should get it today. In the card I also asked him if we could go out on another date (Feb. 14th) and that I would fly there. I also made sure to include my phone # again although he has it.
I hope he will at least calls me to accept or decline but based on his actions as of late....I won't hold my breath but I must try to stay positive. I've never experienced so much rejection in my life but this IS what infidelity will do to a M.
I also wanted to explain that part of the reason (although NO EXCUSE FOR INFIDELITY) was that I felt as though my husband had already left me mentally, emotionally, and sexually for quite sometime. In this aspect I would consider myself to be the LBS.
I also wanted to ask some of you that have been the WAS if you ever felt like maybe you should give up on your marriage if your spouse doesn't "appear" as though they want to work the marriage out? As of late I find myself sometimes having mixed feelings. I wonder if maybe my H really wanted to be married to me OR maybe after we married he realized that he was NOT willing to make such a commitment and that's why it was hard to put me and our M first. When I saw him a few weeks ago I asked him if he could honestly say he put me and our marriage and he said, YES for the most part. I don't agree and I think he knows that he did NOT for the most part put me or the M first. Things were not this way in the beginning. Anyhow, sometimes these thoughts enter my mind and I think that maybe the reason he doesn't reach out to me is because the D is what he really wants and he could not phathom explaining to his FAMILY taking me back after the infidelity. Therefore, its easier to sit back and allow me to continue to call and make an effort while he continues to be withdrawn. Once again putting his family before our M.
