Sooo, life is stable and lonely. I need to be patient and first put my 2 feet on the ground, form my needs and articulate them clearly(I hope the verb is correct) and then see what happens.
H although promised on Friday during my meltdown, never gave me any passwords or phone bill copies etc etc. I am making a mental note for this for tomorrow but I will approach it differently :if you want to be considered trustworthy you know what you need to do. If you dont, you will be treated, respected (not) and considered as a non trustworthy person. And I will shut up. We say "you can drag a mule to the water but you cant force it to drink".
I tried to book tickets for a show for a very well known artist here at a theater, she is a singer (Haris Alexiou). I boked for a day that yesterday I found out my D's show at gymnastics will take place. So I called him to reschedule. From now until March 5th, we couldnt find a day. He wanted to go on a Monday (the hsow is Fr-Mon, 4 days a week) when the kids need extra caring and attention because they have school and couldnt do any weekends. I used to NEVER ask for something specific like that. I may have asked 10 times during our M. I find it unbelievable that we cant have a night out, to dress nicely, go without rushing etc etc What kind of life is that?
I was thinking today, I have seen my H on weekdays afternoons maybe less than 50 times (except on holidays) the entire 10 years we are married. I have not cooked meals with him, gone shopping, gone for a walk, anywhere on weekdays. And not even think we have the weekends, we only have Saturdays.
Well, I guess it is what it is but it will not be the way I will spend my life. K
