K4D It's a Wonderful Life

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I know SO2. But all in all it wouldn't have mattered anyways since she did land another job and is going to be just fine.

W picked up both kids today so I drove to her house after work to pick them up. W went on to tell me about her job and that she still has other interviews as well. Apparently the one she took is a 6 month contract. But she has a 3rd interview with a company that if they say yes on that one Friday, it will be a permanent job. So anyways she starts telling me to let her know if I have any questions or if I need any answers or help for interview questions I am about to face because she can tell me what she has already faced. I said thanks and I am good. I said I have been doing my own research and getting up to speed. I told her a few things I had been looking at and she hadn't thought of those and is going to look into them as well.

Then she had to head off to quoir after I signed the title to the van over to her and I asked how that was working and she explained. I said me and the girls will come hear you sing sometime. She said ok and was happy.

Ok. Major no no's in the world of DBing today. But things were received very positively from her both times. And she really seems to be showing an interest in wanting to help me land a better position.

I know what CG says that it is only so she can basically file without a conciounce. But I don't know for sure that is the case. Why would she care about my job sitch when it comes to filing? If she wants out, she will get out. My job I wouldn't think would matter.

I know I am getting a bit excited here and I shouldn't be reading anything into these interactions. But there are just some real change of attitudes going on lately with regard to how she is interacting with me. And she is going back to church and singing in the church quoir on top of it. She is friendlier these days. Before when this started, she wouldn't have anything to do with helping me land a better position. Flat out refused and was still going forward with the D. That is why I question it this time. She still hasn't said a word about D. Nada.

I know God is softening her. But I am not going to fool myself into thinking a reconciliation is just around the corner either. It could still be a long time out. I can't see the future. But I am putting my faith and trust in God.

It just seems like things are really improving between us since September 2008. Granted she still isn't calling me to say hi or anything. But the fact that we can joke and do things as a family now and with no real tension like it used to be is an improvement. Since the beginning of December, interactions with her have really started getting better for the most part. After today I am going to back off again as I may have jumped the gun just a bit.

I guess I just wanted her to know that I really do care about her and love her for her.

One thing I have to do is keep up PMA and just focus on my job hunt and what I need to do there.

But I definitely praise God that interactions are getting better between us.

Kevin