Blame doesn't help. I have to work on that myself and just clear it up with H next session. I actually don't think he means to, and if he is, hopefully he's open now to seeing it.
I'm trying not to blame too - a big problem I"ve had in the past! We only have control over ourselves!
I also have to work on my own hopefulness and positive outlook - keep looking at those babysteps and believe I'm worth it. That's what I can change, not what H thinks.
And Freckle - you are an inspiration to me. It's never never too late. Time and patience are on our sides. Remembering your sitch keeps me in the hopefulness and PMA!
THanks all, I"m coming out of my funk. Birthdays do bring in the other side of things, sometimes....