I will tell you there is a whole wonderful world full of true friends out there.
Please understand you are doing the right things for yourself and kiddo's. They will understand soon enough.
Sounds like to me your on the right path. You will get there and you will surprise yourself when you walk it and talk it. The first couple of times it happened to me I looked back on it and said - " I GET IT "
You will to- Stay Strong Bro.
M43 W43 D11 S7 M18 T20 WAW is back & trying (no she was lying) Close to callin' it busted but.... watching Whatever the outcome - It was a choice.