Damn it to hell. I royally, royally, messed up. I was trying to do LRT and I failed. Why was I doing LRT? Because everytime I talk to her i get an anxiety attack. I needed time to get away. But could i stay away? no....I had to be mr sensitivity. I called and called her and no answer. So i took it upon myself to go over to her house and tell her the truth about what is going on with me. I knew i should not have gone but there was something inside me that just kept telling me to get it out. SO i show up. There was a dude there. They were kissing. I knocked on the door. She opened. I was loosing my mind and she invited me in to meet this guy. She proceeded to introduce me. Mind you i told her several times that i should go. And i should have gone. But she basically kicked this guy out and invited me in.
We talked. I basically told her i could not have any contact with her for a bit. And i left.
