Can any good come out of giving W some "space"

[brknheart]

It seems to me you spend far too much time trying to get in her head. This is non-productive for any purpose. You don't know what she's thinking. Truth be told in it's own twisted way, neither does she. So, worry about you, how will you fair in the event this goes to D and how you want to live out your life afterward. Let her be and let her have what she thinks she wants, you gone. In the mean time, get out there, socialize, do stuff for you. Live 'as if'.

Yes, I know, its hard to not think about her. I wish I could take a magic pill that would make me stop caring. As for D, the stage is set. I am going to a friends bday party tonight. Sad thing is, that friend is my W sister. My W cutoff her sister the same day she told me she wanted a D. Her sister had her first child that day. Hasnt spoken or seen her sister or the baby (ever). Ive been friends with her since I met my W in high school. We both have something in common, the same person has cut us out of their life.

I am trying to prepare myself for next week. I plan on packing and moving my stuff out of the house. I am going to talk to her again about moving out for a week so I can be alone at the house for the last time. I dont want to see her until the meeting with the mediator when the papers get signed, hopefully the end of next week. Nearly every time we have been alone together at the house since we first separated, we ended up having sex. I can see it happening, I dont want to make the mistake again.

As for my life, I am looking for a job in a new city, preferably out of state. I have no ties to staying where I am, still young, able to start a new life. I had this plan since Oct, when she came back last month I thought things may change.

I am happy that things are working out for you Its great hear a M being worked on especially when kids are involved. My sitch is different, kids would definitely have complicated it. I cant see my W coming back after a D like yours did though, especially when I will have moved on by then...