I understand what you are saying. Worring about something that has not happened is useless. Thanks for reminding me to focus on today and what I am doing now.
As for the fact that she is watching me that is an interesting thought. She said to me this morning that she did not want me to be mean to her because of this. I told her that I would never be mean to her, I might get or be upset or hurt but I will not be mean to you.
Thats the old me the person I was. The person who I will never be again. I will do my best to be as strong and confident as possible through all of this.