I think about leaving it all behind, pretty much every day; the only reason I don't, the ONLY reason, is that I think it would unfairly saddle my kids with guilt and shame. But it would be a huge personal relief to me. People say "it's the coward's way out" but I don't care much about that. It's a way out. I know how horrible the thought is.
GO SEE A DOCTOR NOW!GO SEE A DOCTOR NOW!GO SEE A DOCTOR NOW! and if you didn't get it the first three times, GO SEE A DOCTOR NOW! Don't worry about it costing money...the state messed up your life, it can pay to get you help.
Children of parents who commit suicide never really get over it. GO SEE A DOCTOR NOW!
