Don't know where to post this.

[loveherstill]

She is calling and inviting me over everyday for the last 5 days now. Her attitude seems to have changed a lot since I talked to her two days ago and told her that I did not need her, but wanted her and that if she wanted to file for D I would not stand in her way.

She asked me over for dinner last night and I went. I made the evening all about the kids and S2 fell asleep on my chest. I let him sleep there for 45 min while W gave S4 his bath. Had a good conversation with S12 at the same time.

W tried to cuddle earlier in the night. I did not exactly reject her I just encouraged younger sons to come up on our laps and read them a book.

After the bath we put S2 and S4 to bed and she wanted to be held. She sit next to me and turned to face me and wrapped her arms around me. I held her in the hug as well. She said that the hugs are starting to feel better.

She then kissed me and for the first time since NYE her eyes were closed while doing so (she only closes her eyes when she is feeling "it", I never close mine). I broke off the kiss, thanked her for dinner, and left.

I did not follow her in the house and acted as if I was completely uninterested in what she was doing when she was not actively talking to me.

She said last night was the best we spent together in several weeks.

She text me a joke at bedtime last night and wished me good night. This morning she called and wished me good morning and to have a good day. She hinted around at wanting me to come over tonight. I will wait until she comes right out and asks. If she asks I will go and spend time with the kids and only spend time with her if she initiates. I have told her that I do not need her and without her my income will actually go up as I am a workahaulic and without family around I will work on my business 16 hours or so a day (I will go out on the weekends).

She said she thought that I only wanted to save our M for financial reasons. I reminded her that financially a D would be benificial for me. I want to save the M because I want her, but I would be ok without her, it is her decision.

I think that this has created a big turning point for us. I have let her know she is wanted and that I am here if she wants to work on us, but I will not pine away and die without her.

Any thoughts?