this is not something that will be fixed right away. Some of us have DB'd for many months. I DB'd for 3 months really, but it really went on for several months after he came back. And truly, DBing is something for life. it's not something you do and then quit, it is a learned character.
Perhaps make some short term goals for yourself, and then you reach that term and say, okay, I can go for another month and re-evaluate.
plus, remember when I said that when things get better, they can follow with some bad behavior. The WAS tends to go up and down because they are afraid to put themselves back in the M all the way. It's partly subconscious IMHO. But that is why it is SO important for you to be consistent.
Have tons of fun with your friend in town, and don't let your H's actions change how you feel.
Maybe when he's gone this time, go out with your friend one night and send a text saying how much fun your having.
keep your chin up, keep those negative thoughts out and positive thoughts in.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
