My H and I had a little chat on Monday. I asked him if he regretted my having come on the trip. I was grateful for his honesty when he said, "I'm glad you were there, but I felt that YOU wished you weren't." He went on to say that he doesn't think he makes me happy. That I am sad to often or lost in thought to often and he senses that I'm not really happy that he is around. He UNDERSTANDS WHY I 'act' the way I do but it worries him.
During our "chat" I got angry and yelled at him about his failure to make good on his word to meet certain 'needs' that I have. It felt good to 'yell' at him instead of mousing my way thru yet another seemingly endless, "don't you get it" talk.
The "chat" ended well and things have been good again since. BUT...I will be watching him like a hawk to see if ANY of my requests are actually met.
I will say that when I got home from work Tues. evening that I noticed that he's been reading Men are From Mars, Women from Venus....of course THAT'S NOT the book I asked him to read (I asked him to read The 5 LL), but at least he's reading something.
I'll keep y'all posted...This 'one day at a time' stuff is gonna either make me stronger OR make me a total basket case.
T2
