Not really piecing and trying not to jinx it, but

[dday101798]

Well Freckle,

It sounds like you may very well be in the same boat in that it took the D to finally let all the bad stuff go and get back to the brass roots of why you two fell for each other in the first place.

As Lost Rabbit said, you don't have to necessarily re-marry, that's a matter of personal choice and how your feelings have been or re-develope.

For me, it's a trivial issue. I can not stand to call my ex-wife, and in recent introductions to new friends of hers since we seperated, she still calls me her husband. I think it's a matter of what the heart says. I've never had to answer to anyone else ever in my life until answereing to her became a third of it.

One thing she did do right after the D was over, and I mean right after, was change her name back to her maiden name as I had requested, it pained me too much for her to keep it. She tore our family apart, and therefor I felt she did not bare the right to have the same name as myslef or children whose life she impacted so horridly with what she had done. So, that spoke vulumes that somewhere under her cloak of WAS, she was still in there somewhere.

And you touch on a point of my M that had always lingered in the back of my mind. 2 years into the M, we had a falling out. And it was at that point I was stressed to find myself married with 2 kids, being so young and unsituated myself that I had concluded that I married her for the most because she was pregnant and it seemed the proper thing to do. Sure I loved her, but that was a huge factor.

If we were to re-marry, that would not be the reason (hopefuly, there's some weird things going on I touch in my thread from time to time). If we are to re-marry, this time it would be for us and our own personal decloration to each other.

As I've said, in my heart of hearts, she has been and will always be my wife, no matter how this turns out. She is the only one I will ever marry again. Only for the said reason.

Our wedding and all that what amassed with it, is lost, other than the memory and a few trinket items. However, the date has always been synonimous in our daily lives. W would always make it a point to stop everything we were doing, call or text and say 'happy anniversary' at 10:17 everyday, each time. We now just exchange pleasent message wishing each other well at that time, but ew can't shake it. We've also both confessed that during the seperation and D, for whatever the only time we'd ever look at the clock during the day or night, it alwasy read, 10:17. So, we have obviously never shooken that natural sense.

Ironically now as we peice, that time still haunts us. Several times when we've gone out for a bit after getting the kids situated for bed, the moment I'd start my truck up, the clock would come on and it was? 10:17 (including and most importantly, the first night we went out alone and ended up laying the first bricks to where we are today). Several times we would have been out and needed to get back 'home', when we'd check the time to see how late we were? 10:17.

That said, yes, if it does so happen to re-marrying is in our future, it will be on the same day, it's our day has been, and continues to be.

Mushy and border corney I know. However, it's just one of those 'fate' things to us.