Doc, Wise and beautiful words. I am glad you remain committed to your marriage and are being true to yourself. The paragraph about renewing your vows--I could have written that, I hold that dream close to my heart as well. Thanks for reminding me of that distant shore. Truely, you post is an inspiration. It is most important to hold true to yourself when it is most difficult to do so and when you must push through the dark and fog alone. I guess that is just my inner philosophomore.
There is much work to be done. Your wife is still thrashing about in the water. It will be very, very hard to be understanding and give her real love because of your hurt. Even if the A is over, she is not going to be very pleasant for some time. I think her withdrawal period will be lengthy given her long, long history with the OM. You are in the water too now, Doc. Don't think you aren't. The hurt will come in waves. You wife is in no position to throw you a line either. You are gonna have to tread water.
I hope you will consider sticking around, perhaps starting a new thread and a new handle. I plan to post a new thread under a new name soon, now that I am entering a new phase in the long process of rebuilding. Whatever you do, you have my respect and admiration. Via con dios my friend.
