Flushing the toxins from my life

[CountingCrows]

Hearing is at 1:30pm today. W has said she won't sign the order unless there is something added in writing providing at least a token gesture of spousal support. Couldn't discuss it with my lawyer yesterday (death in his family), so I'm hoping to talk to him this morning to get his advice.

More than anything, I'm so deeply sad that after today, there will be absolutely no chance for W and I to ever have a chance at a R again. I know that's an illogical thought, and that I need to move beyond those hopes anyway, but it's just the way I feel right now.

Just hoping to be able to keep myself together in court today.