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[awest1217]

Having a really bad day today. I am not really sure why. I am just crying for no reason I think. I don't know.

Last night H did text me at 10 pm and I had been asleep for probably an hour so that woke me up and then I can't get back to sleep and I have weird dreams about him and OW, which disturb my sleep. He said "good night, sleep well." Once again vague. I have about had it with the vague texts so I sent back "may I ask what is going on?" he said "just saying good night, im going to bed. sorry for bothering you.". Me "you aren't bothering me. I am just trying to understand what is going on. Good night to you too."

Of course now I got nothing today, but I just don't understand. Can anyone who has been there explain to me? I mean he is texting me, but never asks any questions just says hi or good night and that is it. Nothing to really make a connection or ask how we are doing or anything. I don't know if he is just doing it to drive me crazy, because he really does miss me, because he just wants to be able to say that he sent them, I just don't know. What does he want? If I don't text him, I feel like I am being mean, but his texts don't really need a response because they aren't asking anything. I just don't get it.

I also am not feeling well at all. My stomach is just nautious and I am tired, but that is about it. I am at work because I don't have a fever or throwing up. I just feel icky.

On a good note, one of the students who was driving me nuts, has the last two days has come to me to say sorry for acting horrible the first part of the trimester and said how he really likes me and I am his favorite teacher. IT was really nice and makes me feel good. I feel like for once I have made a difference. Now I am crying again. I don't know what is going on, but hopefully I can get it together soon.