Soooo SG called me last night. We were talking about finalization of the D, and he says "So now you don't have to see me..." and sounded a little sad. I told him that it wasn't that I didn't want to see him, but that I obviously took this split harder than he did, and that it was just too hard for me to see him. Duh...
I got the feeling he was expecting me to break down and beg him not do finish the D. I didn't. I just told him I would finalize the paperwork this weekend and email it to him. He has an attorney friend who will look over the decree, and if all is okay we will both sign it. He can go in the next few weeks and finish it.
I don't get it. I mean, this IS what he wanted. Why the heck does he sound like its not? He made it a point to tell me that he is not dating because he does not have time with work. I made it a point to tell him I had been dating.
Its the damned pride that is hitting him again. He is a moron. I mean, how can someone be so stupid?
I did find a great website that sends me tips every day on how to move on from a broken heart. It has some great tips...like when your brain is telling you that you cannot live without this person, and that you will never find anyone again it is just because the sub-conscience is trying to protect you from being hurt again. The answer? Thank your sub-conscience and then realize that the chances that you won't meet someone are slim to none.
It does work.
But stupid me...I still miss the SG.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
