Well its official we will be working on a trial seperation. After discussion this morning it is clear that this will be the best for both of us. She does not have those feelings for me and after a year of nothing really changing that living together is not improving our situation.
I told her that I need a wife who loves me and wants to be with me and I think that my being here is forcing you to try and get those feelings back for me and not because you want them back. She did not disagree with that assesment.
Not sure how to proceed from here but I have looked at stuff on the internet and I have a place I can move into for a while. What I have read is that we should put a time frame on how long we should live apart and of course arraingments for seeing the kids and financial stuff. Really worried about telling my kids. Did not want to put them through what I went through and maybe that is why I have fough so hard for so long.
Not sure if I am all that sad at the moment, not sure what I really feel. Sort of numb but then again sort of knew this was likely to be the outcome all along.
