Oh no !! Poor N... So that was a powerful eclipse weekend hey and I see it has shunted you onto a new path - you changed your DB board AND you changed your tagline !!! Woohoo, you made it here.
About what you said about not knowing why all the past stuff hit you so hard the past few weeks.. I was thinking about that. I think some people are more 'in tune' than others and it WAS the right time to be going back over things, as painful as that was.. Mercury was going backwards since just before Christmas (around the time H moved back on a 'we'll see' basis and you had to get your head around that too).
Although Mercury is now going forwards since the weekend and the mental direction is more hopeful, its still in its 'shadow' phase so doesnt properly go forwards until 4th Feb I think. Mentally, Mercury retrograde makes us revisit things, rethink, relive the past, so we can process it and then move forwards once again. It was also a BIG eclipse window. And now.. all that is subsiding and Jupiter moved into Pisces on Monday, so it IS onwards and upwards from here kiddo, once we get into our stride. Jupiter is going to be with us most of the year, so we have to grab those opportunities that appear as though by magic.
Talking of which.. whats this interesting thing you speak of ???
