Welcome to T2's Tunnel, I'm Redecorating

[holdingon]

Yikes... maybe it was Halloween causing all of this??

My suspicion is at an all time HIGH, I feel like a caged animal in some ways

Ditto, here. And it is not a good feeling. I wonder did my H take too many steps forward, now has gone back to OW?

My imagination is beating the hell out of me. I want to run.

Me too. Only I don't have anything here to run away from... I just want to run away from the whole situation. The wondering, the not knowing, the wanting to call and knowing better not too. Wanting to ask questions but not wanting to hear the answer. Just wanting my life back.

I have said in the past that worry is a waste of the imagination. And you know it is. You need to do the same thing you have always done, the same thing you tell us to do... take one day at a time. Enjoy each moment for what it is, not what it should be, could be, etc. Just have fun. No serious stuff, enjoy. Use a beginner's mind on this trip... no expectations (believe me, they only cause problems!) HAVE FUN (if it kills you!)