It is so good to hear from you. I was wondering where you where at. Regarding the financial situations, before I brought the house I was basically paying cheap rent and had most of my income going towards debt. With the house, I am barely breaking even. I think my W always thought that because I went to Harvard that I somehow had a lot of money. I think now she is beginning to realize how dire the situation really is and has agreed to talk to a Realtor to see how big of a lost we would take if we sold it now.
I just feel really screwed right now. On one hand, I'm glad I'm with our family. We have a lot of issues to work out, but at least we our together. On the other hand, I am really stressed out about the $$$. I have no car, no means to buy one, and can barely make my mortgage. I have a lot of resentment and hate myself for not standing my ground about the house when I felt it was the wrong decision.
I guess I am both happy and sad; feel like I am trapped. I really wanted to wait one more year to work out our relationship issues, pay off debt and then look into moving in together/taking the next step. I am just so angry right now and have been doing my best to just keep it inside.
