New Year... New Life!

[sandycay]

We are evaluating that. Kerry, I just want to be sure that I am not missing something. You know, I feel 99.9 percent of the time I am great. Then I see all the people on the board struggling and people I know personally that have gone thru this struggle with it. I just want to make sure I am not shoving the feelings under some rug somewhere.

I guess I am nervous that I am to well, to happy. It's been a long time and I've been waiting for the proverbial bomb to drop and I guess I just am "scared" that it hasn't yet.

I also want to make sure FFG isn't a "distraction" a "rebound". He has been so wonderful but I wonder if he never called again ... how would I feel? Can I handle it? I want to make sure I am healthy enough. I don't know if this makes any sense.

I want to deal with all the shat... cause you can cover shat up for awhile but it always starts to stink and I wanna make sure my shats flushed away...forever.

I guess it helps me that a professional that has followed along since the beginning...tells me I'm not crazy, I'm not using FFG, I'm not rebounding, I'm not moving to fast, I'm not going to fall apart later..unexpectedly.