I'm Baaaaaaaack!

[SirPrizeMe]

Halooo out there.

Thank you all for the words of support. It gives me hope that other people have been in the place I find myself now.

Yes, it is a sad state of affairs.

Kerry - I read some of your recent news and it's good to see you enjoying life. Glad to hear it. To answer your question, yes indeed, I still have my bicycles (plural - one for road, one for trails, and a spare!) but I haven't ridden them in a year or so. One of them is about 20 feet away from me. It's been sitting since April, when I unpacked it from my move.

In answer to your other question - no I did not burn any bridges at work; in fact people have offered me interviews and opportunities. It's just that ... not sleeping, you know, not caring... I wouldn't be effective at work. Work can be fun, engaging, stimulating. But there's a reason they call it *Work*, you know: all the little headaches, challenges, it takes a steady conscientious effort. A commitment! and in my head there's a voice: why would I go through all that? for what? There's nothing to salvage. No house at risk (it's gone). No savings to preserve (gone). No way I could climb out of the debt I'm in. So. It's sort of pointless.

I know that must sound sad and shocking, but that's my honest perspective. I used to happily go to work - never complained because I felt so lucky. Very engaged and motivated at work. I was not the guy to check out at 330pm and head for the bar. Now? it's a little different.


I know there are other people out there who could use help. I know there's a world out there. It's just outside my window.

...I thought of volunteering in Haiti. But you know, that seems pretty ambitious. I don't even go outside now. That's a bit of a reach for me, honestly. I think maybe a smaller step might eb more appropriate.