Thanks flowmom - i realise that even though i have moved on in the physical outward sense. i have not internally. It has to be subconsciously that i have harboured these dreams of reuniting. i am shocked at myself and feel it is not something i can talk about with people around me.
sooo the question becomes does the realisation alone that I have not moved on start the final process of letting it go.
I hate hate hate the OW. I could never ever imagine sitting down at any event with her. Would kill me. The frightening thing for me is that i thought i was over all this. I dislike feeling this sad way.
