Thanks for the hint about "I'm trying so hard." The sort of blouse I was thinking of is completely out of character for me. But I had the craving to find something like it before X contacted me about paying bills. But yes, I don't want to show up in something that looks too drastic.
I do have to be careful about "overdoing it." It's frustrating--all the threads advise looking SOOO great when you meet up--waxed, polished, hair, etc...but here in the Great North where I live, you are dressed up if you are wearing your new Carhartts with your new Sorells! so just a little bit of dressing up goes a looong way.
So, if CB can show off his goods when he has an opportunity to do so, can't I take advantage of a meeting that HE asked for to do the same?
At the moment, I am planning on doing all my taxes without talking with X about it.(dealing with my half of the joint stuff)
But again--that is 'more of the same'--independent and remote.
Sigh.
Good on ya for the 24 minute run, CB! what are you aiming for?
My new running friends have me signed up for a half marathon in April, so I have a goal to concentrate on. Hope the knees can hold up!
Thanks for taking the time to respond, flowmom, when you are in the thick of the worst of it right now.
Me: 44 Him: 42 Together: 23 years; never married Bomb: August 1, 2009 Affair since May 2009 Walk away; no conversation; no process
