W and I have been trying to be better, physically and emotionally. Things are feeling better than they have in most of our marriage. Seems odd to be feeling so close when a month ago I was completely ready to move on because I thought it was hopeless.
Problem...I feel like that period of time apart has opened a "pandora's box". My mind keeps thinking that my W and I are doing great because we are into an infactuation like state. The reasons I was ready to go are still there - different personalities from the start of the marriage. Different education, different goals.
I'm venting frustration perhaps, but I feel much more guilt now because I can't get myself to fully commit to the marriage even though things are much better. I guess I'm really saying that I can't commit to my W.
My IC (our old MC) said that I might be hoping to recommit to the idea of my W, rather than the person she is.
