New Year... New Life!

[sandycay]

Things are moving along... seems STBXH did indeed purchase a boat to live aboard. He thought the kids and I knew he did that. He doesnt' tell me anything...he just screams at me over money.

I finally called him out on his more than rude behavior. I told him I haven't yelled, cursed, and been rude to him in the past two years since the bomb dropped.... I couldnt' believe that he had stooped to treating me this way. I asked him to please explain to me what I had done to deserve his recent rash of scream fest. I also ask him if he realized that not once since he has been gone has he ask me if I am doing ok, how is school, how are the kids, how is your family... I told you have ask nothing about anything to do with me. But yet, I continually ask you how you are... and told him last week when he was in a lowest of low moments that if he needed anything I was here for him... in the midst of him screaming at me for weeks.... I continually stay calm and nice. His answer "I'm sorry".

Then I said ... you say that at the beginning of every conversation for the last conversation then you end up screaming anyways.

Lost Cause... he's in major trouble with his job.

It's not his fault of course... everyone is out to get him, even me!

So incredibly sad. He said he just wants to move on and be happy like me. He equated my happiness to the amount of money he is giving me. He doesn't understand that I will be happy no matter what income I have.

Things are still going great with FFG.... been a steady course for quite sometime now. He's just that into me and I am pretty into him so all is well there. Fun, respectful, no stress, no pressure, all is well. I don't want this to be a rebound relationship because I think he is worthy of more. We are very open about these things. I am in IC and talk with her about these things. She thinks I have my head screwed on fairly straight and because I am aware of these things that it will not get carried away before it's time.

It's a pain not being able to introduce my kids yet. I will wait till everything is final in the eyes of the law and society before I do that. That's another month away so that will give me plenty of time to see if that's what I want to do. I did meet his kids over the weekend. Nice children.... but it would be a do over for me as the little ones are young. But I do love kids, but it does require some thought.

That's all the news I have.